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So I had one of the worst days I have had for a while yesterday. I almost cried during class because we were talking about families. I applied everything to my parents that we were talking about and that includes the subject that in some families there is an outcast (me)!!! I just can't win and every time I try to be happy I fall flat on my a**. Why does it have to be that way and why would God allow it to be that way? I know I shouldn't question him but I can't take it anymore and I am so worried that I have come to the end of the rope and it will break!! Why????????? I can't do this anymore!!! Oh also my teacher said that therapy doesn't always work that sometimes the person doing therapy (a child was our example) the person who has the ties broken can't always mend these ties and usually is still considered an outcast. I know for a fact that my parents won't try at therapy themselves so why am I going?? These are questions that I came up with during class yesterday and made me want to run out of my class screaming and crying but these are also questions I will have to try to answer and work out. MORE STRESS YAY J/K

awwww

My friends just had their baby awww 6 pounds 9 ounces awwww can't wait till there are pictures go jake you are a daddy now man!!!!!

all better

So I went to my first counseling session yesterday!!!! Very good I don't know why I was so scared lol I have another next tuesday yay I am so glad and can't wait for more strategies for me to use when I am stressed yay!!!!

Scared

I just signed up to do counseling at ACU starting on Tuesday Sept 1st!!!! Man I am scared not only to try my hardest to talk to someone I don't know but to finally get help scares me a whole lot. I haven't forced myself to get help before and now I wish I had!! I have needed help since middle school but didn't get it now that I am going to I am scared and I don't know why!!!! I should be happy that I finally can get some advice, not that my friends can't give me advice THANKS SO MUCH GUYS LOVE YOU LOTS, but actually get some professional advice and maybe get some techniques of how to lower my stress level in good ways not bad!!!!!! I want to Thank ALL MY FRIENDS for always believing in me and making me feel like I could get through whatever came I just need a little more help these days that's all and I will never stop coming to y'all for help!!! KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS thanks guys!!!

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2 more days baby and so along parents until november heck ya

so back in the states

so I am back in the states I didn't stay in Vienna even though it would have probably been a better idea!!! I had my purse stolen yesterday, I have been fighting with the parents too much, and I am sicker than a dog at the moment damn colds!!!! I had better luck when I was in Vienna then I did here but I only have two more weeks and then back to school so I guess I can live till then lol!!! I had a wonderful time in Vienna and want to go back someday when I can afford it!!! well I am out got some things to do!!!! hope those who read this have a better week then I have had this past week and hope you have a good day!!!

so...

so I haven't written in a while!!!! I am currently in Vienna Austria having the time of my life (I don't want to come back) lol!!!! I will write more later I have class!