The new year needs to be better

As I look back on the year I have overcome too much for just one person. I have dealt with the verbal abuse of my family. I have dealt with hard times at work. I have excelled at doing what I love which is working with animals. I have 4 amazing animal children Cool, Bella, Sadie, and my new man Riley whom all have love enough to make up for what I don't get from my parents. I have moved out and am loving finally having my own place even if I am renting from the rents. However, I still am struggling with depression and way to much stress. I wish the family was different and that we all got along. But I am still walking forward and not looking back. If I have to I will leave this town behind but since I have overcome so much it would be crazy to leave on a sour note. I am just tired of always being the one on the short stick and told what to do. If not for my 4 legged children and writing I think things would be worse. I also have all my friends I call when I am down to thank for all you guys do. You guys are my sanity life line if it weren't for you I don't know where I would be and especially during the holidays when it is the worst. I love how much you guys support me in what I do even though I never have my parents support and wish I did it is nice to feel like at least someone wants to support me. It is my friends that help me through my tough boughts of depression and fighting. I luv ya guys

OMG I am in love with a dog

I got a pit bull mix in 5 days ago. He was an abandoment case and I have fell head over heals for this big lug. I named him Riley. Riley is so in love with Sadie that I chose to keep him and give him a home that he deserves. That is where the trouble begins. I had to tell the rents and man let me tell you the stress is just begining. I feel once again betrayed by the ones I love. Feel like once again I have to fight and not be shown an ounce of understanding for how I feel. My dad said to start looking for a home so I can move out after Christmas. Good ridince in my opinion but I can't think that way I know that. I have just completed 5 months of not wanting to cut and have kept myself sober for 2 years. Why do they continualy keep stressing me out? Do they want me to go back to my vices? I don't get it anymore. I can't keep up with the stress they cause, the stress work causes, and the everyday stresses. I won't stay sober for long if this keeps happening. I emailed them and gave them this website in hopes that they will read it and understand what I am going through so if I change my blog this is the reason. For those who follow I will email you if I choose to do this or maybe I shouldn't I don't know. I am just tired of being treated as a 3 year old would and not being thought of as an adult who can make her own decisions. Well I have to go get ready for work Thanks for all of the friends that have supported me through my tough times it is you guys that keep me fighting for my rights and make me feel loved

One of my favorite songs

Third Day - I Need a Miracle Lyrics Artist: Third Day Album: I Need a Miracle (Single) Send "I Need a Miracle" Ringtone to your Cell Listen while you read! Well, late one night, she started to cry and thought he ain’t coming home She was tired of the lies, tired of the fight, but she didn’t want to see him go She fell on her knees and said, “I haven’t prayed since I was young But Lord above I need a miracle” Well no matter who you are and no matter what you’ve done There will come a time when you can’t make it on your own And in your hour of desperation Know you’re not the only one, praying Lord above, I need a miracle I need a miracle He lost his job and all he had in the fall of ’09 Now he feared the worst, that he would lose his children and his wife So he drove down deep into the woods and thought he’d end it all And prayed, “Lord above, I need a miracle” Well no matter who you are and no matter what you’ve done There will come a time when you can’t make it on your own And in your hour of desperation Know you’re not the only one, praying Lord above, I need a miracle I need a miracle La la la la la la la La la la la la la la La la la la la la la Whoa oh La la la la la la la La la la la la la la La la la la la la la Whoa oh He turned on the radio to hear a song for the last time He didn’t know what he was looking for even what he’d find The song he heard gave him hope and strength to carry on And on that night, they found a miracle They found a miracle La la la la la la la La la la la la la la La la la la la la la Whoa oh La la la la la la la La la la la la la la La la la la la la la Whoa oh In your hour of desperation Know you’re not the only one, praying Lord above, I need a miracle I need a miracle Read more at http://www.songlyrics.com/third-day/i-need-a-miracle-lyrics/#2vDEHLZyjH67I0UA.99

trouble on the homefront

Once again I find the need to write about trouble at home. I am tired of fighting and again wish I was somewhere anywhere but in Farmington NM where I get it everyday. Unfortunantly I can't go anywhere do to the job, my horse, my dogs etc. Why do my parents constantly nag and rag on me? Why can't they understand I am 24 years old and need to make my own decisions? I don't understand anymore and still wish that the Lord would hear my pleas and answer my prayers that I have been praying since I was in middle school