UPSETS ONCE AGAIN THIS TIME ON THE JOB HUNT

So I applied for an awsome job as a behavioral health clerk at the hospital here in Farmington a few weeks ago. I have been waiting around hoping that it would all work out and that I could finally work somewhere I actually wanted to work. Well today I found out they filled it with someone else. This is such a letdown and I hope that they enjoy the person they hired because they sure hurt my feelings. I am a Psychology major wanting to work in my field but what I come across in the job discriptions is work experience prefered certification required and when you do the certification you have to get job expereience as well so how am I supposed to get experience when they won't even hire me in the first place???? It is so damn frustrating and I am getting upset as I write this lol!!! Well I have no more to say lol I guess I just have to wait for things to work out hopefully that will be soon!!!! I am tired of the dissapointments of my life and it is getting hard to want to find a job because of the stress that is involved!!!

Prayers are needed for my Grandma

A few days ago my Grandma mentioned she had a lump on her breast to my mom. She has had it for a few months now but it is getting bigger and so she went to the doctor. The doctor has ordered a Biopsy and a Ultrasound to test the lump which he thinks is most likely cancerous

We need the prayers
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Lord,
Why do you test me like this? Why is my relationship with my parents such a fight? I have done nothing but serve you and listen to your commands. I know in highschool I fell from your love for a while but it was a hard time then. I have come so far with your guidence and love. I have graduated from college and learned that I don't have to take the stress my parents cause me. Yet, it seems like you still test me with my parents and how they treat me. why is that lord am I not worthy to have a better life that I have definently earned and deserve? Why don't you answer my prayers?

UPDATES

Well my family has totally pushed me away. I am done with the drama, stress, and hatred that they show towards me. I am most likely moving back to Abilene in September to live with a friend until I can find my own place! I have decided that I am done with the bull and that it is better for me to find my own place!!!! The only reason I would stay is if I find a job!!!

I definently need the prayers because of how bad it has gotten at my house!!!

Thanks so much
Larissa

Yet Another Dissapointment

I am looking into buying a beautiful horse from a rescue group. She is 6 years old 14.2 hands and part draft horse. She was abandoned by her previous owners and is now ready to be adopted. I asked the rents if I could, telling them that I would pay for everything. The answer is NO!!!!! What parents say NO when the are told the child will pay for everything??? Especially when that said child has a job and has the money to do it???? I am going to push them and see if I can get them to say YES but I am tired of them always saying no!!!!!! This horse needs a home I need something to consume my time so I don't have to be at home and something that will help me destress when shit like this happens!!!

I haven't asked for a horse since we had to put my first one down!!!! I had her for a year and she went lame (or for those who know about horses.... She Foundered)!!!!! That tore me apart when that happened and I haven't been ready to take on owning another one since then!!!! Now that I am ready I am getting the wall put up saying no!!!!!

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i love how my family knows just the right strings to pull to make my life a living hell!!!! i am tired of my family and how we treat eachother!!!!!!