Lord,
Why do you test me like this? Why is my relationship with my parents such a fight? I have done nothing but serve you and listen to your commands. I know in highschool I fell from your love for a while but it was a hard time then. I have come so far with your guidence and love. I have graduated from college and learned that I don't have to take the stress my parents cause me. Yet, it seems like you still test me with my parents and how they treat me. why is that lord am I not worthy to have a better life that I have definently earned and deserve? Why don't you answer my prayers?
this breaks my heart..... I have struggled with religion for the last couple years, but I know someone is around, and they are listening, hes giving you opportunities that maybe at this moment you dont see.. for example moving, maybe these fights with the parents are his way of giving you a nudge and saying your strong enough to be on your own without them, you can love family.. but at a distance..... I use to get frustrated because I use think no one was listening, but it wasnt the case it was just that I was too upset and confused to see what was being pointed out, you have friends that love you, you have a degree (btw cant wait to get mine so im a lil jealous :P) you have a passion for animals, you have your health, the door may not be open but I know several windows are! I really hope you move, I know this has gone on for years, and I know I say the same things over and over, but trust me.... itll be better for you and your relationship with you family... they dont understand that your an adult, not a teen, not a person that needs to have their hand held to cross the street,, you are an ADULT, I think they might be scared to let you go out on your own so this is their idea of coping with it, and its not right, you know you deserve better, and like I have said a thousand times .. sometime you just have to take that jump.. no one else can push you but you,. Right now I know things are rough because you work with fam, you live with fam, and you want to be able to do your things, you know and I know you are responsible enough to take care of animals, but all parents are going to resort to the "my house my rules" (and if you have kids im sure that will be said ha).. so if thats the case than so be it...The reason I suggested ALBQ is because they are cheaper in rent by hundreds, you wont find a place in F-town that isnt a decent price, being that my dad is a realtor even he said there is nothing he has that is in shaun n I's price range to rent.. so to move to albq.. and number 2 .. ill be there at the end of the year!!! ...
ReplyDeleteI know you know the right choice, and your the only one to make it, i just hope you do it!, because I hate seeing them do this to you, it is hard to respect someone when they say things like that to you and do hateful actions, "sometimes goodbye is a second chance".. please take care of yourself k sis!..ill even help you find an apartment!